My 21 ^^

alhamdulillah..Allah still gives me strenght in my 21..Actually my b'day was two years ago,but I did not have time to write here at that time, and now I have a new power to write what I feel, what I think, and what I hope..
Okeh baiknya pake bahasa indonesia aja,cinta indonesia loh soalnya,hhahaa :D
udah bilang aja kalo bahasa inggris gue masih belepotan *uhuk*
Ulang tahun itu maknanya banyak..bisa jadi pertambahan umur dan pemendekan usia hidup di dunia, biasa jadi pertambahan tanggung jawab karena udah makin dewasa, bisa jadi pertanda kalo rambut udah memutih dan kulit udah mengeriput, bisa jadi bisa jadi..yaah intinya pendewasaan diri dalam menyikapi masalah. Kalo umur udah tua tapi masih belom dewasa cara berpikirnya sama aja boong, ulang bulan aja ga usah ulang tahun #apasih
Pertama, terima kasih banyak buat Allah SWT. sang penciptaku yang memberikanku kesempatan untuk masih bisa merasakan berbagai macam hal di dunia-Nya ini. Rasa syukur yang teramat sangat kuucapkan padaMu :)
selanjutnya, terima kasih buat mama papa dan semua keluarga besar ku, baik yang di padang atopun yang di curup..yang kirim sms atopun telfon ngucapin "happy birthday" setulus-tulusnya..yah keluarga memang tempat berteduh yang paling adem di dunia ini *kirimpelukanhangat*
terus buat sahabat-sahabat terbaikku, belahan jiwaku *cieilaah*
buanyak nama yang mau disebutin, oke mulai aja dari sahabat" SMP aku: Kiki, Sasih, Nanda, Ridha, Putri, dan Rahma (jarang dapet kabar dari rahma -_-)
trus sahabat semasa SMA : chiper yang nelfon pas aku masih bermimpi indah, intan, widya, insan. aulia (dua nama terakhir belom ngucapin selamat ultah ke aku sampe detik ini *catet*)
trus trus besties pas zaman college aku sekarang ini, yang "boco"nya kebangetan, lihai bener ngusilin sama ngerjain aku sampe nangis..dan tersangka-tersangka tersebut adalah Suyanti, Nisabro, makbro, mbak yoan, pacarnya mbak yo *safriko,red*, trus yang terakhir ini, ah ntar aja disebutin namanya, spesial soalnya :3

sayangnya opa, abak, sama tante El udah duluan pergi kesana, Allah sayang mereka jadi mereka udah ke surgaNya duluan,hmmm apalagi abak yang baru aja pergi bulan november maren :')
selalu berdoa buat mereka..

buat yang spesial tadi, mmmm apa ya? itu tuh si Yuda Afriyan Putrakuuu ^_^
yah dia ikut"an ngerjain aku sama sobat"ku yang "boco" itu,hoalaaah akunya udah polos bener cerita sambil nangis"tentang masalah yang ruwet sebelum aku ultah tu,eh dianya malah udah tau dan pura-pura ga tau..kesel? gak juga sih, cuman 1 detik doang,hhaha
makasih banyak atas surprisenya..mana udah ujan-ujanan..jauh-jauh pula datang dari LA (Lubuk Alung,red),aaaaaa tambah sayang akunya *upps udah ntar keterusan curhat

Pokoknya terima kasih buat semua yang tersayang..yang udah ngucapin via sms, telfon, fesbuk, twitter, spesial dan terspesial buat yang udah kesenggol nama-namanya di atas,hhihi sukses buat kita semua..

love you all ({})

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Today I have performed in front of my class. I was delivering about my speech, and its title is “Learning the Bee’s Live”. That was because I have taken the public speaking class, and I had to prepare a speech on the thursday morning. Actually, I have no much preparation for this although I have stayed up late. I had to do my best for this, but my speech is also still unfinished. I became "galau" at that time until I have performed in front of the class room.

Fortunately, I could pass that "kegalauan", but there was still many mistakes that I have made when I performed.  I also cannot keep my eyes contact, and all of my thought was blank at that time. that was so bothered me.I will do my best to "repair" my mistakes, so when I perform the next chance, I will not do the same mistakes.

The Full Anxiety

I have a trouble woth my anxiety. I cannot control my anxiety well. On monday, I should present my paper in front of the class, and I felt so afraid about it. I was afraid if my lecturer gave me some statements which could make me sad or doubt. I was not cheerful at that time, and always moody. I could not control my anxiety until I have finished my presentation. However, the presentation was not too bad as I thought before. I could do it, and I have given my best to it. Now, I want to reduce my anxiety because I think it disturbs my self-confidence. I hope I can do it until next and next time.

Daydreaming

daydreaming is a kind of activities that we usually do. We do not know when we do it, or why we do it. here is a little explanation about the daydreaming from http://www.dreammoods.com/dreaminformation/dreamtypes/daydreams.htm
plese check this out :)

Daydreaming is often a disregarded and neglected aspect of dream study because they are often overlooked as fleeting and wandering thoughts. There is a lack of emphasis on the content of your daydreams. However, the meanings to your nightly dream symbols are also applicable to your daydreams.  he content in your daydreams are also helpful to the understanding of your true feelings and in fulfilling your goals. Daydreaming occurs when you are semi-awake. It is the spontaneous imagining or recalling of various images or experiences 

in the past or future. You allow your imagination to run away from you. When you daydream, you are accessing your right brain, which is the creative and feminine side of your personality.

Daydreams are often viewed as light-hearted in nature. They are just silly fantasies and wishful thinking. Actually, even worrying over things can be classified as a form of daydreaming. When you worry, you are visualizing an unwanted or negative outcome to a situation. By repeating these negative images in your mind, you are more likely to make them happen. Next time you start worrying, try to think of a positive outcome.

Inner Beauty :)

There are two types of beauty in the world today; inner beauty and physical beauty and the best way to judge a person is by their inner beauty. People shouldn’t be judged via their physical beauty but instead their inner beauty. The definition of beauty is the characteristic of a person, animal, place, object or idea that provides a perceptual experience of pleasure, meaning, or satisfaction. The definition of inner beauty is positive aspects of something that are not physically visible. The most common qualities of inner beauty include kindness, sensitivity, tenderness, compassion, creativity and intelligence.

There are two types of beauty in the world today; inner beauty and physical beauty and the best way to judge a person is by their inner beauty. People shouldn’t be judged via their physical beauty but instead their inner beauty. The definition of beauty is the characteristic of a person, animal, place, object or idea that provides a perceptual experience of pleasure, meaning, or satisfaction. The definition of inner beauty is positive aspects of something that are not physically visible. The most common qualities of inner beauty include kindness, sensitivity, tenderness, compassion, creativity and intelligence.

I copy that passage from http://www.healthtuber.com/Health-Articles/inner-beauty.html and I agree with it. How about you?the inner beauty is the real beauty. The outer beauty will loose as the time go on, but the inner beauty won't. So guys, keep your inner beauty living :)

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I do not know whether I am sad or happy or confusing or anything else. Stress is the most appropriate word that   is suitable for me, and I feel I want to kill it. I want to be free..far from the word stress, but  in this week, it is so difficult to be not stress anymore. There are so many assignments that I have to do, and those assignments are not easy to think.

I want to kill this stress as fast as I can. I shoul be able to do it. I knew from my mom that stress can cause some illnesses, and I do not want that I get them. So I will try to not to be stress and enjoy my life although it is so difficult. I will try to do something which is makes me happy, or I will go online, but I have to do those activities in my leisure time, when I feel I am so tired to do the assignments. Good luck for me, and no comment for all of this stress.

woaaaaww..earthquake!!

yesterday was a panic day. There was an earthquake, and I was still on the MKU building, on the second floor. The source of this earthquake was from Aceh. Here is the description about it from wikipedia

An earthquake (also known as a quake, tremor or temblor) is the result of a sudden release of energy in the Earth's crust that createsseismic waves. The seismicity, seismism or seismic activity of an area refers to the frequency, type and size of earthquakes experienced over a period of time. Earthquakes are measured using observations from seismometers. The moment magnitude is the most common scale on which earthquakes larger than approximately 5 are reported for the entire globe. The more numerous earthquakes smaller than magnitude 5 reported by national seismological observatories are measured mostly on the local magnitude scale, also referred to as the Richter scale. These two scales are numerically similar over their range of validity. Magnitude 3 or lower earthquakes are mostly almost imperceptible and magnitude 7 and over potentially cause serious damage over large areas, depending on their depth. The largest earthquakes in historic times have been of magnitude slightly over 9, although there is no limit to the possible magnitude. The most recent large earthquake of magnitude 9.0 or larger was a 9.0 magnitude earthquake in Japan in 2011 (as of March 2011), and it was the largest Japanese earthquake since records began. Intensity of shaking is measured on the modified Mercalli scale. The shallower an earthquake, the more damage to structures it causes, all else being equal.^[1]